Ive met alot of couples, and quite honestly ive known some of their worries. Yes because most of the couples i know are my friends and among friends. It interests me enough that as I grow deeper into my own relationship, So as the people around me. As another year adds more memories to each partners so as the trouble or problem that everyone experiences. It isnt petty fights anymore, but more serious issues. And some of the serious issues that brought to my attention is: when someone in a relationship or both parties in a relationship tends to get to comfortable with each other that the idea of privacy is no longer, should i say "practiced". Well, in the early days of courting we do find it sweet to find the love of our life "-as-of-the-moment" isnt quite afraid to show what he/she really is.
     The trouble with having no privacy between a relationship is that there is no more mystery or thrill, I do admit that that mystery or thrill lures us to our SO, and when the time comes that its too normal, ughhh... it gets boring. And when it gets boring, whats the point?
    The second and most serious is, when either one of the people involved in a relationship is too much dependent on the other one financially. Well ofcourse it wouldnt be a problem if you are earning enough for both of you. But isnt it a deal breaker? I mean, yeah you promised to be right there beside your SO through thick and thin but how do you draw the line between THICK and THIN? how THICK is that love you are trying to understand and see for yourself to have?
     Does it only goes that when you love somebody too much that you are soooo much willing to be the rock that supports the foundation? My only idea is, when we grow with somebody, the responsibilities that each of us will have also grows. The continuity of a relationship doesnt grow merely on love, or too much love but the selfless and undying understanding that you can never exist as a whole when you decided to part ways. For I do believe that in a longterm relationship, when the other person decided to extract himself from a relationship just because enough is enough he will surely live but the idea that he left because the going gets tough stains his ability to handle one.

Its hard to begin a story or a sentence saying that you are ok, when you know that you have to believe in yourself and to know that you must and have to do something even if the butterflies in your stomach turns into dragons.
 I always have been a positive thinker, i always think ahead and know that things will definitely be good as what i have envisioned it. I guess this idea became a defense or an avoidance of fear. As the youngest child in the family, it was mixed with tough reality and sweet pleasure. You got to have what you wanted when you ask it, and tough because people always and will continually think of you as the baby even if you are taller now. But i dont want disappointing my family, so i learned to portray this discreet and shy character when infront of them. They have this dream of success on whatever im in to. but i guess i couldnt please them much longer. Theres this exam that i have to take- again.. for the 2nd time...
 My parents most especially my mom, wants the best of me, i know. and she wants me to pass, i also wanted to, who doesnt.. but im taking the pharmacist licensure exam for heavens sake, and it doesnt apply that i only study letters but i have to study the actions and toxicity of drugs and how to handle them when to give them and how to give them, and people, and economics, and law concerning about it. Its hard. I know passing it would give them pride, and i wanted to give them that. But its hard. Most especially when most of my fellow examiners shares their parents thoughts about it. Their parents, are ok, to the point that their not expecting much. their parents, gives them moral suypport that whatever happens there would always be another time, that it will never be the end of them.
But my story, they just stares at me after what ive told them what my mom expects me to do. I will do everything to pass this soo to be exam. But with added pressure. And thats hard.  So hard.
I tell myself you can do it, but on the back and back of that thought is fear of displeasing those people who were very much important to me...
I love my mom, dont get me wrong but... ughhhh... this is hard...



please do pray for me... this would be my 2nd time of having this exam.. i hope ill pass...
im thankful for all of your prayers,...please...do.. ive guessed that God would be definitely hear my hopes when there will be tons of people praying... :D

Me and my friends find time to close the gap between us, right now some of them are busy with their works, and even families of their own that we seldom see each other. But when we do make up, we talk almost about everything even share about everything, throws question about everything. Imagine 5-8 girls in a room, with all the shouts and giggles and tears. lol. We share almost everything... We even talks about shampoos we are using!!! lol...

That...

One day my SO asks me if we do happen to share all about our deeds with our SO, and what it is all about. I was shocked not because im frightened of what he's reactions maybe but shocked because it never occurred to me that he will think about that stuffs. Like When girl do meet, and talks etc... etc.. I was even avoiding to look him in the eye  and say OFCOURSE NOT.Theres discretion involved in those meeting...(ofcourse i know he knows better)... Lol... ofcourse i dont say much, but then again... THEIR my friends they kNOW me much!!! lol...

Im beginning to wonder if, do guys also tell their friends about their SO when they catch up..or they would just talk about cars, basketball, boxing stuffs, and BLOOD!!! grrrr...